Little Penguin Big Dreams

i thought of you today and how it felt like running into you was yesterday. it made me sad to think and feel the way i did a year ago and feel those feeling just as strong as tho they were yesterday………..god how i miss my bestfriend….where did you go?? i dont know who this person you have turned into is…i dont know who you are anymore 

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you said you missed me and wanted to talk. you begged me to talk to you. so i told you to call, and when the time came…..you never called………… 

I woke up this morning and already you were the first thing on my mind. already i missed you and wished you were here. i dont know why everything happened. you still ask about me and cant understand why you cant have your bestfriend in your life. You notice that i delete you off facebook within a few days and txt me every now and then to tell me you miss me that your sorry for hurting me. You even contact another friend about me when i dont respond to your msgs, upset that im not talking to you. You get upset when you were told not to contact me anymore. You cant even really tell me when you stoped loving me, cause to be honest you just seem incredibly lost and i dont think you did.  I know im on your mind everyday tho you run to other means of distraction so you dont have to acknowledge just who and what you ran away from. You ran away from the person who loved you the strongest, believed in you the most, and would have never givin up on you. But so easily you ran cause you got lost and scared. And i need the person who will stay and fight this battle of life with me and not run. One day you will realise just how much you are missing out on and who youre missing out on. And on that day, you will come looking for me and i wont be there and you will have lost the best person for you.

Today i was told that you are doing terrible. That you were crashing and burning. you broke my heart when you just up and left me. To quote the singer Adele “i had no idea of the state we were in”. And now i found out that not only have you walked away from the best person in your life but the best of everything in your life. I love you and i worry for you. It is so hard to hear that you are falling apart and i want to help you. but if i do then i will be the one to crash and burn……..and i cant do that.

caitlinmaryy15:

Dear Girl,

I think its time for you to let go of him. He has hurt you and me too much. Just let the memories fade. Its time to leave him behind. I know itll be hard but its for the best, trust me. Remember, always follow your heart and everything will be fine.

Love always, Your Heart.

(Source: imustofgotlost)